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take care.
its hard having to live life, and living for not juz urself. its not that i dun like it, but sometimes knowing ur actions will hurt ur loved one, only heightens and deepens the pain.
if only life was simpler. if only the pain would be on me.
sry for hurting u.
plz dun ask why
bye
heys guys.. juz hoping u guys could do me a favor...
Jobs Offers for the following few (Perm or Temp Staff both required):
1. Medical Records Officer :
-preferbly Male
-min O or A lvl grads
-Pre-enlistees are welcome
2. Admin Assistant
-Dip min
-Admin duties
-Office hours/5 days
3. Account Assistant:
-Min. Diploma in Accountancy
-With or without experience is fine
-Fresh Grads may apply
4. Clinic Asst/Receptionist/PSA
- customer service in clinic/hospital
- Office hours/shiftwork
- n/o levels minimum
If Interested or needing more info, plz call 67363280 OR send your resume over to nursing@recruitexpress.com.sg (Attn: Ethan)
*Job offers are applicable only to Singapore Citizens or PRs*
Hope to hear from you all..
lately.. i havent been slping well.. i cant even close my eyes for 10 mins straight.. it always takes me til like 3 am to slp, when i'm totally worn out and half past dead.. i keep asking myself the same thing.. i'm coming 20 this yr.. wat have i done for these yrs.. wat's the things i've done to show tht; "HEY, i'm alive damnit.. i've done something to make my worth.." and after thinking so long.. my conclusion is... WTF HAVE I DONE???!!! the only god damn thing i've done in my whole entire fuking life is waste the LIFE I"VE BEEN GIVEN.. AND THT IS IT...
i have a pretty gd life.. a gd family.. a gd background.. gd schs... gd education.. ALL i ever did.. was piss on them and take them for granted.. all i cared bout was myself, and only myself.. whining bout this, whining bout tht.. and i'm so so sick of it.. i wasted my 4 yrs in sec sch, living life, and complaining every single day, instead of doing any better.. i floated thru my 3 yrs in poly, concentrating on nuthing, except clubbing and drinking.. THE ONLY FUK i got out of it, was bad grades, and a whole lot of useless frens i could do without.. of coz, thnk god for the gd ones tht i have met.. u guys noe who u r.. 401, yuling, jeff and the gang, the ones in WG tht i still keep in contact with, and a whole lot more. there are juz too many to list.. u guys noe who u r, as long as i still bother to contact ya.. =S =P.. least the other gd thing tht came out of it is, i realised how lucky i was..
i noe wat ur tinking by now.. great, ethan's whining bout his so-called pathetic life again.. sighz.. and u noe wat.. ur probably right.. i am whining.. but if i dun get this off my chest, its gonna kill me.. this feeling sucks.. its just so EMPTY.. like u dunno wtf ur doing alive.. and thts juz eating me up alive.. its sickening..
now all i can do, is juz hope i can do something abt this, and not make all this time tht has past be for nuthing.. gotta look 4ward afterall.. =) so wish me luck k.. hopefully this will be the last "emo" post i'll be doing from now on..
so til then, take care guys.. and thnks for wasting ur time reading these LONG LONG paragraphs of rubbish.. =D
juz finished ubin marathon ystd.. juz wanted to blog abt it.. cuz found it pretty funny.. lol
reached Pasir ris sea sports club arnd 7 in the morning.. was half excited, half worried.. due to my injured wrist.. was worried bout how i would perform without having the wrist recovered fully... started the race arnd 930, in K2, with my partner Jia Jun...
this yr was different.. we started in the opposite direction as previous yrs.. starting off towrads chek jawa at the start... the start, was as usual, exciting and full of adrenaline.. accidentally capsized this pair of K2 ladies.. I"M SO SRY!! lol.. anyway.. it turned out fine.. a little choppy at the start.. but nuthing we couldnt cope 4 the moment.. til we reached CHEK JAWA... this is the choppiest and worst part of the ubin race.. and the weather ystd was INSANE.. with waves REACHING MY CHEST LEVEL.. ARGH!!! caused us to not capsize, but SINK!!! for 5 TIMES!!! irritating!!! lol.. tried in vain to continue, but couldnt, so had to retreat and backtrack to a nearby island, called Frog Island.. dunno why is it named so.. :S
anyway.. while going to the island.. i was wondering whether our sch's other pair of K2 would be there, and sure enuff.. there were stuck there too.. lol.. apparently they ended up sinking too.. the sight at the island was pretty funny.. lol.. u could see the whole fleets of K class boats being on the island, all forced to stop the race due to similar reasons.. so in the end we rowed back to the mainland, in a formation, juz in case of further capsizes.. took quite awhile.. as the weather wasnt letting up, and soon everyone ended sinking again.. lol..
was pretty disappointed with myself, as i wasnt able to finish the race.. felt pretty sad.. but kinda let it go after awhile.. cuz there wasnt anything more i could have done about it.. thnx to my partner Jia jun, i managed to enjoy the race, even though it was pretty funny.. haha.. (AND i realised that SAJC ppl can swim pretty well... haha)
this race brought back plenty of memories.. with this being possibly being my last race in a K.. its been fun, but its getting much too tiring to keep competing.. TIME TO TAKE A BREAK.. =)
on another tone though.. i'm seriously gonna die.. tink the sun got to me.. aching all over, and my head's splitting with a horrible headache... and my stupid wrist pain has worsened.. :S extended from my wrist to my whole arm.. so irritated with it.. lol
nuthin much to update bout.. life's stil boring and lousy.. so no diff there..
meet up everyone soon k???!!!
bye..
mood:restless, bored, and irratable
thoughts: ever felt like u wanna succeed and be gd, in at least 1 thing, but u've been unable to accomplish it for ur whole life, not even for any one single item, to the pt u feel so useless and stupid tht u see no pt in living?
kk i'll go slp.. nite
went to work as usual today.. for those who dunno, i'm currently rotting away in attachment.. this is the 2nd wk so far.. 5mnths and 2 wks more to go.. super tired after that, den dragged myself down to KTV after tht.. no pt elaborating wat happened there.. wats done is done.. anyway had quite a lot of fun.. jeff, me, joanna, kelvin and jane went to sing the ktv.. jane came pretty late though, and i muz say.. i love her voice.. haha.. duets with her was GOOD!!! lol.. tink now i'll be in my nua-ing state already.. dun feel like going out anywhere in the near future.. too turned off in terms of mood and energy already.. =S
anyway gd thing 4 the ktv today.. managed to vent off alot of the negative energies and anger tht has been building up inside for these few wks.. tink i'll juz slp the rest of those energies off.. nite nitez =)
*sometimes when u tink in too simple a way.. u'll nv know wat mite happen in the end result.. always prepare 4 the worst..
wat used be a form of relieve when i needed, seem nuthing more than a hindrance lately.. so be it then.....*
Rules of the game :
player start off to list out 10 weird things/habits or little known facts of yourself.
ppl who get tagged must also write 10 things out.
then the player must tagged another 6 ppl and no tagged back is allowed.
1. I have a habit of staring into every reflection i can find, and stopping infront of it to check how i look like..and i do mean EVERY SINGLE REFLECTION (car windows, mirrors, bus stop signs, u name it)
2. i get very frustrated when i have nothing to do and being stuck at home.. to the extent of pulling my hair and feeling super annoyed (if ur reading dis, plz ask me out to do things.. ANYTHING.. I'm VERY BORED!!! lol.. )
3. i have a super short attention span.. i cannot sit down and do nuthing for even 5 mins
4. i'm a person with a very tempermental mood.. i get mood swings very easily and very often..
5. Sometimes when i'm being quiet or moody, its not tht i'm having probs.. its juz that i'm feeling very empty (which happens a damn lot) and i have nuthin better to say..
6. I'm a person who always like to dream and tink too much, but nv ever actualy get down to doing it.. love to procastinate..
7. i tire myself out like a dog when i'm feeling stressed or emotional.. its the only sure fire way to stop me from tinking negative thoughts..
8. i forgive very easily.. but i nv tend to forget.. i can still rmb grudges held from pri 1 til now..
9. during bball is when u can see me at my fiercest.. cause i let out my true self when i'm there
10. when working/ playing with me, i hate it when ppl dun put in their best, cause u'll be letting down the ppl arnd u when u noe u can do better than that..
6 ppl are: yisi, yuling, amanda, leo/poh leong, jeff and eileen
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.helpless.. stupid fuking hell.. lousy ass brain.. CAN U NOT BE RULED BY MY HEART SO MUCH!!! FUK U!!!! lol
anyways.. a shoutout to all my newly (2 wks considered new i guess) made frens.. eileen, amanda, sylvia, leo (considered new cuz i didnt really tok 2 u much b4 meeting the girls up).. u've all made my days a little brighter these few wks.. 4 tht i thnk u all..
also not 4getting my other bros, jeff and kelvin, sentosa made me feel much better.. thnx 4 asking me along.. though sunburns hurt like FUK!!!! ARGH!!!!
AMANDA.. i have a sturdy butt.. so too bad 4 ur finger.. HAHAHAAHA =D
in the mens open category, consisting of 31 teams from different schs... I GOT FUKING 2ND!!! wootz.. yayayayaya YAY!!! i love my partner.. it is all thnx to Bernard Lim Chang Kang.. my super commando partner.. yay!!! u rock..
i swear.. this is the most unique bday i've ever had.. lol.. met up with both my ex-gfs on the same day.. lol
woke up from leo's hse in bukit panjang.. den proceeded out to take a cab, before realising the area looked super familiar.. called denise up, and realised that she only lives a few blocks away.. lol.. so met her up and went for lunch at bukit panjang plaza.. the lovely girl treated me my lunch.. den we stoned arnd 4 awhile b4 i had to leave 4 home.. thnx so much denise..
got home.. rotted in front of com.. with dozens of ppl asking me why am i home.. lol...
went out at nite arnd 10.. met huihui up.. she's super sweet lar.. THNX SO MUCH!!! bought me famous amos cookies (400g of it.. CRAAZY!!!!).. den we went to play pool over at meridian.. crapped alittle.. den went to NYDC for food.. she bought me an oreo cheesecake with a candle.. juz b4 my bday officially ended.. and she paid 4 the bill.. lol.. thank u so much hui..
except tht i spent most time rotting at home.. i guess this bday wasnt too bad afterall.. i tink..
currently rotting at home on 9th of aug... yes i noe.. its my bday.. wtf am i doing at home??!! well the sad thing is.. i've got no plans 4 the day.. lol.. neither did anyone ask me out.. so sad rite?? haha
went for dinner with amanda, eileen, leo, kelvin, jane, joanna, jeff and my baby sis, josephine .. went to crystal jade for dinner, where my dear loggies, eileen and amanda got me a cake.. and its my fav cookies and cream ice cream cake.. haha.. yum yum.. they got me a shirt, and a very nice card.. i practically teared when i saw it.. lol.. i'm gonna frame it up..
went to esplanade after tht, and spent sometime there.. reminiscing some stupid memories while up there, and cam whored a little.. lots of nice pics taken...
went to VD after tht, and got drunk there.. lol.. had a lot to drink.. till i totally CMI.. apparently i'm pretty cheeky when i'm drunk.. lol.. sry eileen.. *poke poke* lol. and ya.. i'm really glad i got drunk.. haha.. alex u noe why.. thanx 4 the drinks man.. and thanx to justin too.. i officially am staying away from drinks 4 a while.. lol.. went over to leo's hse.. thank u so much.. thanx 4 looking after me.. and omg.. lying on ur lap on the cab was SOOOO GAY!!!! ARGH!!! looking at u nude.. SO GAY!!!! hahaz.. but i love u man bro.. thnx.. haha.. nude and all.. haha
i wanna go OUT!!!!! arghz.. lol
left the hse arnd 3 to plaza sing.. supposed to catch disturbia, but all the slots were full.. so we sat arnd at Macs for bout an hr plus.. before going to the arcade and wasting money on racing games.. lol went dwn to glass hse after tht for fish and CO..had seafood platter for 2 with jeremy.. waited a LONG TIME for everyone's food to arrive.. den gorged myself with all the seafood
finished dinner arnd 8.. had to go dwn to somerset for a Whosgoing meeting.. but go stopped by my lovely teammates.. to my surprise.. they actually got me a freaking cake.. lol had to stand on top of the chair while the fish and co ppl started singing their WEIRD bday song and made me flush red with paiseh-ness.. hahaz.. really appreciated it though.. now that i tink of it.. i have NEVER EVER gotten a cake from my frens b4.. so it was quite.. sweet of my lovely teammates i guess.. hahaz.. really made my day..
so.. juz wanted to say.. THANX TO EVERYONE IN NGEE ANN KAYAKING TEAM.. love ya guys.. hahaz.. (coming from me, that sounded pretty gay.. lol)
1st time i've been so stumped..
juz a simple Qns.. and i feel so.. blur..
and yes.. i do owe u an answer.. i noe..
sighz.. how irritatin it can get when our past comes back to haunt us..
and i really regret wat i did to u.. its the only thing in this pathetic life of mine that i wish i could take back..
someone plz kill me...
arghz.. i feel so fuking broKE!!!! damnit.. didnt even realise i've got so many thing i've gotta buy til lately.. damnit.. any kind souls can donate me some ANG PAOS to get my stuff plz??? lol
1.Wallet (mines spoilt already.. boo hoooo..)
2. Watch
3.HP (fuking hp cant work anymore.. ANNOYING!!!)
4. Black based converse sneakers
5.a new mouse for laptop
tink thats it.. ARGH SOMEONE KILL ME!!! I NEED MONEY!!!! lol
7days, by Craig David
On my way to see my friends
who lived a couple blocks away from me (owh)
As I walked through the subway
it must have been about quarter past three
In front of me
stood a beautiful honey with a beautiful body
She asked me for the time
I said it'd cost her her name
a six digit number & a date with me tomorrow at nine
Did she decline? No
Didn't she mind? I don't think so
Was it for real? Damn sure
What was the deal? A pretty girl aged 24
So was she keen? She couldn't wait
Cinnamon queen? let me update
What did she say? She said she'd love to
rendezvous
She asked me what we were gonna do
said we'd start with a bottle of moet for two
[Chorus]
Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday
I met this girl on Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday
[Verse 2]
Nine was the time
cos I'll be getting mine
and she was looking fine
Smooth talker
she told me
She'd love to unfold me all night long
Ooh I loved the way she kicked it
from the front to back she flipped (back she flipped it, ooh the
way she
kicked it)
And I oh oh I yeah
hope that she'd care
cos I'm a man who'll always be there
Ooh yeah
I'm not a man to play around baby
Ooh yeah
cos a one night stand isn't really fair
From the first impression girl hmm you don't seem to be like that
Cos there's no need to chat for there'll be plenty for that
From the subway to my home
endless ringing of my phone
When you feeling all alone
all you gotta do
is just call me call me
[Chorus]
Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday
I met this girl on Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday
[Bridge]
(Break it down, uh break it down)
Since I met this special lady
ooh yeah
I can't get her of my mind
She's one of a kind
And I ain't about to deny it
It's a special kind thing
with you-oh.......
[Chorus]
Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday
I met this girl on Monday
took her for a drink on Tuesday
we were making love by Wednesday
and on Thursday & Friday & Saturday we chilled on Sunday
